Giving up control

So, I finally get why it is so hard to quit (cold turkey) my addictive and compulsive behaviors. In reading one of the Step 3 devotions in my Recovery Bible, it was all laid out very plain to me. (That's good, cause I need it simple!) It said, "When we give in to our dependencies and compulsions, aren't we giving control over to another power? Aren't we in some way giving up personal responsibility of our life? When we are overwhelmed and want to escape, our addiction can make us feel strong, safe, attractive, powerful, and/or happy. So, in a sense, we are very comfortable with the thought of giving up control of our will and our life."
I was right. I have a control problem. However, not the control problem I thought I had. I totally thought that I had no control concerning my addiction. I thought that I had no willpower and I couldn't understand how others have overcame huge and difficult things that have hurt them or even merely came in between them and God. But now I think I got it!! I have been giving up control this whole time....just not to the right thing. I have been giving control to my addiction because it made me feel safe, strong, and comfortable. But truly, these feelings are temporary. Only Jesus is the one who brings healthy and lasting changes.
Jasie - A